Work and Rework

Try try again.

Imagine you're cramming for a paper or essay all night, because it's due really soon. You crunch and crunch and then pass out after declaring it "done."

Then when you wake up the next day to read over your work, it's all kind of... bad.

That's sort of what just happened with my writing process. I mean, I don't think it's all bad, most of it I still find really good! But other parts I find myself cringing over.

To be fair that's always the relationship I've had with my work, especially creative projects. I make something that I think is amazing at the time, and then after I get a little bit better, that thing is suddenly trash. And boy do I love to purge it.

I may be too harsh on myself or my art of years gone by, but at the same time I love how I am growing and that I can examine my own works to make them better, or at least make the next thing better. With art, I don't normally redo old pieces, I just make new ones. And that's why writing is a particular kind of weird and challenging for me personally. It's not "done" and it won't be "done" until I go through this revision process time and again. I never actually edited those college and high school essays I used to make. I would write it all start to finish, use the spellcheck, and call it a day. Don't know what that says about me or the US education system...lol.

I have been reminded that this game, and my writing, don't have to be perfect. It's enough for them simply to exist. I want whole heartedly to bring these characters into the world and out of my head where they've lived with me for years. I want to do them justice, but it's not like this is the final thing I'd ever make of them. At least I hope not. So I'd better get back to it. If I don't make this thing no one else will! (Not the same way I will.)

Signing off again for now, with more updates as the process chugs along.